...but no energy to do it. You see, I'm coming off of the holidays and then The Husband's surprise 40th birthday party and now I am two days into a corporate wide church fast. So, believe it or not...I've been sleeping. A lot. It's like I have no control over my body anymore and it isn't a depression/lazy type feeling. It's like God took out my batteries and He's recharging them or something?? And, did I mention this fast is totally wrecking me???? A headache from caffeine/sugar withdrawal that cannot be described. However, I feel like in the midst of this I am already experiencing a greater sensitivity in a spiritual way. And, it leaves me wanting MORE!
I'm actually on my first attempt of a 10-day Daniel fast. I've fasted in the past, but never this strict. Here is a brief description of where this fast comes from:
But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way. Now God had caused the official to show favor and sympathy to Daniel, but the official told Daniel, ‘I am afraid of my lord the king, who has assigned your food and drink. Why should he see you looking worse than the other young men your age? The king would then have my head because of you.’
Daniel then said to the guard whom the chief official had appointed over Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah, ‘Please test your servants for ten days: Give us nothing but vegetables to eat and water to drink. Then compare our appearance with that of the young men who eat the royal food, and treat your servants in accordance with what you see.’ So he agreed to this and tested them for ten days.”
Basically what ended up happening is that Daniel and his buddies were glowing and healthier by the end of the 10 days. Now, please bear in mind the Bible never specifically calls Christians to a "Daniel" fast but there are numerous references to fasting (in one form or another) as being beneficial. And, many times it is joined with prayer (and, my prayers today have been "Lord, please take away my caffeine withdrawal so I stop shaking like I'm coming off of some kind of narcotic and "Lord, please give me the strength to drive past that KFC without stopping for a bucket of chicken"). If our pastor had not assured us on Sunday that we would not die from doing this, I would have checked myself into a hospital today! I guess when your body has become accustomed to 7-8 servings of caffeine each day, it might do some pretty funky things when the servings drop down to zero! However, it has not messed me up enough to knock me out of being the top Wii hula hoop champion in the house!
I plan to blog more about the fast after it is over because I am anxious to gain a new perspective and draw closer to God in the process (with minimal distractions). I know He is so faithful and He is causing this "rest" on my body because He knows what we need even better than we know what we need!